Struggling after friendly blackbird needed to put to rest.

Hello I need to get this off my chest but I have nobody to talk to about it. Yesterday I had to phone the RSPCA because a blackbird (which we call Billy) who has been visiting us over the past 3 years  came to us in the morning and we immediately noticed something was wrong. His top beak was missing 3/4 of the way down. We assume he had either been attacked or flew into something by mistake. It was heartbreaking to see him trying to eat the food we put out for him but wasn’t able to pick up. Unfortunately he had to be put to sleep after the RSPCA officer took him away as he couldn’t eat anymore and would starve to death.

Me and my family have a lot of memories with him ever since he started interacting with us 3 years ago. There has barely been a day go by when he hasn’t visited. He wasn’t scared of coming close to us and would sit outside the window shouting until we gave him grapes or raisins. This past Summer he was even bringing his babies to feed with him and it was adorable. He was the sweetest bird I have ever met and now that he’s gone I feel empty. I feel guilty because in order for the RSPCA officer to come out I had to catch him first which I did by trapping him in a mesh greenhouse, then had to grab him and put him in a box. He was really frightened about what was happening and I feel like all the trust he had in me just completely vanished in that moment but I couldn’t just leave him to die slowly. I had to do it. I just wish he understood that I wasn’t doing it to attack him..

Another thing that has really got to me is that I wasn’t even aloud to have his body back because the RSPCA said over the phone that they can’t give the information out about which vet he was taken to. I really wanted to bring him home and burry him in the garden. All I have to remember him by now is a few small feathers. I can’t help wondering if the vet just gave him the injection then through him to one side as if he didn’t really matter.

I can’t stop thinking about him and all the memories from over the years and now we will never hear or see him again. I’ve been crying all day. It might sound pathetic but he really made me happy whenever I saw him. I miss him so much :’(

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  • Thank you so much. I had to find somewhere to talk about it and figured this would be the best place. He was like our little budgie. We talked to him everyday and he use to always follow us around the garden. He was one of a kind and I don’t think we’ll ever meet another bird like him.
    The most bizarre memory I have with him was back in Summer 2018. I was sat In the garden with my pet tortoise and Billy flys down and sits on the lawn for a few seconds then flys away again and I noticed that he left something. I went over to see what it was and it tuned out to be half of a blue egg shell. As crazy as it sounds I think he was trying to tell us that his babies had hatched. I couldn’t believe what I had seen and wondered why he would bring it to where he did but I think that’s what his intension was. He was just the sweetest bird and I hope he knows how loved he was. We’re going to make a memorial for him soon but I can’t bare to look in the garden just now because he would usually be sat outside the door making little noises until we fed him. It really hurts because he should still be out there, but he won’t be there ever again. Broken heart
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  • Thank you so much. I had to find somewhere to talk about it and figured this would be the best place. He was like our little budgie. We talked to him everyday and he use to always follow us around the garden. He was one of a kind and I don’t think we’ll ever meet another bird like him.
    The most bizarre memory I have with him was back in Summer 2018. I was sat In the garden with my pet tortoise and Billy flys down and sits on the lawn for a few seconds then flys away again and I noticed that he left something. I went over to see what it was and it tuned out to be half of a blue egg shell. As crazy as it sounds I think he was trying to tell us that his babies had hatched. I couldn’t believe what I had seen and wondered why he would bring it to where he did but I think that’s what his intension was. He was just the sweetest bird and I hope he knows how loved he was. We’re going to make a memorial for him soon but I can’t bare to look in the garden just now because he would usually be sat outside the door making little noises until we fed him. It really hurts because he should still be out there, but he won’t be there ever again. Broken heart
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